As i was on my way home today, I suddenly thought of this: How horrible it must have been, to live on this world deaf. There's no many things you can't do,appreciate,listen/hear.
I really admire those musicians who are still able to be one of the best in the world despite being somewhat handicapped in one way or another, one of them will be the famous percussion soloist. She's brilliant..
Can't imagine how i will survive to play music if I suddenly go deaf one day. Unimaginable. It's gonna be worse than hell probably, not able to hear what you have to say, not able to listen to music, not able to practice effectively? that i don't know.. bla...... lol
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
I have been thinking a lot of misfortune happenings because of dangerous looking objects everywhere. What if one fine day I were to be disfigured, what's gonna happen to my life, I don't think i wanna continue as a musician, but i dun be a musician, what else can i do. The society works in such a way that most disabled people are seen as undesirables. If that's the case, I might as well just end my life and put my misery to an end, but that wouldn't be fair to others isn't it. To others who care about me.
Then another occasion, I forgot what i saw, but i imagine if my hands were chopped off. My life is gone, I can do nothing else already. I don't think i can be like those miracle handicapped people(sorry i got no idea how to make it sound better), and still lead on a happy life and still try to motivate others and say it's not so hard. But the Australian(i think)guy, when he said something about having no hands, how is he going to hold his wife's hand, something like that. How am i going to hold the hands of my loved ones, physical contact is something which is very important, to me at least. I want to be able to feel them properly. 希望我不會有這一天, some may say I'm thinking too much.
But hey, the future is so unpredictable,anything can happen. I might just die tomorrow, for no real good reason. But i just wanna let you know,you are in my heart.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Life is fucked-up-ly unfair and fucked up.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
I feel aimless recently once again. As if I lose my goal in life, don't know what to do in life.
But, is that true? no i don't think so. I know what i want, or at least I am aiming somewhere ain't I? But it's very vague, I have yet to pin down specifically where and how and why. This is not good.
I need to find more time. If only 1 day = 100 hours, that would be good, but that will be horrible wouldn't it. Lol.
I feel stupid. Able to comprehend is one thing, able to explain is another, able to bring out how you feel is another totally different thing. Sigh. me = bad application of knowledge learnt in many aspects. Sounds like a bad thing eh. Ohhh dear. Life oh life, art thou gonna be easy on me? (oops, lousy old + modern eng)
Excerpts, Repertoire, History, Theory, Aural, Sight singing.. all these are current, short term, temporary. Yes they help to build up fundamentals and everything. But in the long run, what's in for me? Ohhhh, how i wish i can see the future.
Friday, April 02, 2010
How many more days to concert!?!?
jiu ming~~~~~~~~~ Mozart's not being a nice date to me...
(12:28 AM) jasmine ~trouble: he's lutoslawski (12:28 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: and modern and new stuff and then? i dunno him LOL (12:28 AM) jasmine ~trouble: he used anything that sounded weird (12:28 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: he aint familiar with me hahahaha (12:28 AM) jasmine ~trouble: yeah he died alr (12:28 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: ims orry to hear that (12:28 AM) jasmine ~trouble: really familiar with you eh? (12:28 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: poort man HAAHHA mozart knows me i knew chopin a few yrs back mozart revisited me a few days ago (12:28 AM) jasmine ~trouble: you mean he's not turning in his grave? (12:28 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: he's coming for my conecrt to hang me LOL (12:29 AM) jasmine ~trouble: LOL (12:29 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: beethoven's trying to stop him now :P (12:29 AM) jasmine ~trouble: wonder how he visited you (12:29 AM) jasmine ~trouble: Oh i get it...Beethoven likes you eh? (12:29 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: he's taking submarine express yeah quite he likes my pathetique 2nd mvt (12:29 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: but would love to kill me too for my moonlight 3rd (12:29 AM) jasmine ~trouble: I know you like him but is it a two-way relationship?:P (12:30 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: but i had an agreement that i will play him chopin's funeral march and he say ok he wont kill me (12:30 AM) jasmine ~trouble: so he's stopping mozart from hanging you so he can do it himself? (12:30 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: but that made me stop looking for chopin, cuz he's hunting me down now LOL (12:30 AM) jasmine ~trouble: L....O.....L (12:30 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: and wagner ,mendelssohn rossini berlioz were approached as well (12:31 AM) (8)Flut3z(8) is DAMN: and the story goes on
LOL totally random i know. Theory ah theory, zhen shi de. Tonicization, anyone like to help me with that? :D i give you chocolate for that LOL.
Yay to the orchestra :D
Upcoming: mozart concourse wed, thurs fly!
oh. exam before fly! , damn
LIM CHEN HUNG CLEMENT
11th September 1990
Flute,Piccolo,Piano Riverside Concert Band
Sembawang Symphonic Winds
Sembawang Wind Orchestra Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band
NAFA Diploma in Music Performance
More gigs, performance
More exposure to the scene
To be a professional flautist