honestly speaking,i hate procrastination...but i can't help it...my body won't do as what i HOPEd to achieve.well..you can say tat its lack of determination and stuffs.i don't know.but one thing's for sure.or rather i think so...
there's a high chance of me..well..erm...retaining.i know surely when people see this post,you guys are gonna gimme hell and lots of stuffs and saying nonono u can do it de etc. seriously.but i really don't think so..this is me,myself.i know what i'm saying.
i really feel i can't catch up.just look at my pathetic maths. its dying.no.im dying, heh sounds crazy.i can't catch up AT ALL ever since the beginning of school..and now it's getting worse.one can say that "study everyday.weekdays on study on the current stuffs,weekends on wad was taught."well yes true,its possible.BUT i have band practices on weekends.you can tell me to stop band practices and study,yes u can do that.but no.i wont.or rather i won't when i don't want to stop.i don't want to stop something which i really like doing.i hate it.no. i rather suffer another consequence than stopping.
It's not as if i wanted to be a journalist or school teaching teaching literature or social studies like that when i grew up,based on my subject combination.i wanted to be musician as you all know,a flautist,pianist,conductor,or flute/piano teacher.doesnt matter for these few.but what the hell am i doing in a jc?this isn't the route for me.i can easily say i want to go to a music school but which one is rEALLY good? and that's besides the point when money issue comes in.and yong siew toh.without college graudation entry is based on case by case basis.so there's not really a high chance for me to enter.damnit.
mr kellett said before he had never thought of wanting to be a teacher yet he is now one and he likes his job.and besides he sings in singapore symphony chorus.and he said its not impossible to follow my dreams.yes true..but i mean..the background and culture and everything does matter i feel..i mean i will try.but. argh. its just so hard.taking the 1st step,it doesn't necessarily means that 2nd step and so on will be easy.it takes a long time for some stuffs..
another week or so to piano exam.dead as a lamb chop i am.shall try study maths now.
LIM CHEN HUNG CLEMENT
11th September 1990
Flute,Piccolo,Piano Riverside Concert Band
Sembawang Symphonic Winds
Sembawang Wind Orchestra Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band
NAFA Diploma in Music Performance
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