As i was on my way home today, I suddenly thought of this: How horrible it must have been, to live on this world deaf. There's no many things you can't do,appreciate,listen/hear.
I really admire those musicians who are still able to be one of the best in the world despite being somewhat handicapped in one way or another, one of them will be the famous percussion soloist. She's brilliant..
Can't imagine how i will survive to play music if I suddenly go deaf one day. Unimaginable. It's gonna be worse than hell probably, not able to hear what you have to say, not able to listen to music, not able to practice effectively? that i don't know.. bla...... lol
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Misfortune
I have been thinking a lot of misfortune happenings because of dangerous looking objects everywhere. What if one fine day I were to be disfigured, what's gonna happen to my life, I don't think i wanna continue as a musician, but i dun be a musician, what else can i do. The society works in such a way that most disabled people are seen as undesirables. If that's the case, I might as well just end my life and put my misery to an end, but that wouldn't be fair to others isn't it. To others who care about me.
Then another occasion, I forgot what i saw, but i imagine if my hands were chopped off. My life is gone, I can do nothing else already. I don't think i can be like those miracle handicapped people(sorry i got no idea how to make it sound better), and still lead on a happy life and still try to motivate others and say it's not so hard. But the Australian(i think)guy, when he said something about having no hands, how is he going to hold his wife's hand, something like that. How am i going to hold the hands of my loved ones, physical contact is something which is very important, to me at least. I want to be able to feel them properly. 希望我不會有這一天, some may say I'm thinking too much.
But hey, the future is so unpredictable,anything can happen. I might just die tomorrow, for no real good reason. But i just wanna let you know,you are in my heart.
LIM CHEN HUNG CLEMENT
11th September 1990
Flute,Piccolo,Piano Riverside Concert Band
Sembawang Symphonic Winds
Sembawang Wind Orchestra Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band
NAFA Diploma in Music Performance
miyazawaflautist@hotmail.com
WISHLIST
Muramatsu SR
More gigs, performance
More exposure to the scene
Money
Good techniques
To be a professional flautist
Laptop
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