what am i so upset so frustrated so irritated so angry so emo so unhappy about?
its not like i want to everytime post unhappy stuffs up here nowadays but it seems like whenever i'm gonna blog. all these stuffs that are bothering starts popping up.
it ain't exactly fair for you to do someone's stuff when the person don't do it,but fine. for the sake of letting the thing run, i do it.
it's not really fair when people are there having fun and you are doing work when you deserve as much as them, or maybe cuz same age. fine.. can ignore that. nevermind.
it's not fair when when..you have your own problems and you have to settle other people's problems.
neither is it fair when you know the person can do it but didn't try hard enough.
what am i talking about? i ain't able to phrase it properly.sorry.
today is thursday. its a public holiday. and for once. i can finally rest at home.but i didn't manage to.why? performance. i don't mind that. but. mentally i aint having any breaks.damnit.
its like... they just keep on stacking up.just like in tom & jerry when jerry was up to mischeif and tries to break the plates and tom saving all of them till he is out of 'hand' .. den jerry gives a gd kick.and everything goes *BANG* den comes the maid after tom's life.
if you think you are the cause, sorry to disappoint you. it's not just you, everything plays a part, all are equally important and don;t worry. you won't be able to take my life. but ALL will.
great.now i sound like some idiot who's upset who can't express what he wants. so as i have said. big head but small brain. you can laugh. but that's the truth . and no. the brain ain't big. or ok fine. i don't make use of my brain efficiently . happy?
when i want to be alone, ,i don't get it. when i want people to be around, i can find only air. so fun right. just like hide and seek.
Now i wonder. what am i doing with my life now? playing with it as sometone had once said? or am i trying to create my own path?which is correct?
Tomorrow, or rather in 11 hours time. NYJCSB will be performing at Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station nearby for SMU's Blood Donation Drive. christmas event.Do come down and listen if your free eh.
performingtime is from 11am to 3 pm.
LIM CHEN HUNG CLEMENT
11th September 1990
Flute,Piccolo,Piano Riverside Concert Band
Sembawang Symphonic Winds
Sembawang Wind Orchestra Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band
NAFA Diploma in Music Performance
miyazawaflautist@hotmail.com
WISHLIST
Muramatsu SR
More gigs, performance
More exposure to the scene
Money
Good techniques
To be a professional flautist
Laptop
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